voice

I don't know why I'm like this. But sometimes, this little voice in my mind is saying extremely nasty things. When I read Eugenia's blog, my brain just goes "let's see what you'd be like when it ends". This voice becomes really loud when I'm alone and I reflect on my life. I think about why everything is all about her, I think about the biased teachers, I think about why no one seems to acknowledge my existence, I think about all the things that happen in my life that is constantly reminding me that I will never be treated in the same manner as her. I will always be that girl who sticks to her, I will always be the one who no one will ever remember by her name, but only as the girl that is always with Eugenia.

I don't want to think this way. I don't want to think that of my best friend. But sometimes when you are confronted with the same thing each day, you can't help but grow....a little jealous?