holding onto

sorry. i forgot. you don't need me anymore.

I hate that feeling. I hate the feeling that happens when something you had been holding onto for so long suddenly falls apart. Whether it is my favourite band or friendship, it's beginning to happen in my life. A friendship that I have been holding for nearly 5 years is beginning to fade away from me. She's got her other half. It seems like, she doesn't need me anymore.

At the end of each period we don't have together, she only asks people for him and not for me. In her blog posts, all her happy ones are now only consisting of his name. I'm not saying that it's wrong or anything but...I feel really really bad about it. I understand that she really loves him, I understand but it is then that I realise, without her, I feel really lonely. Each time she walks with him, I'm left all by myself. I really hate that feeling. But I can't do anything about it...

Maybe that's life. People come and people go. That's reality but even after 15 years of life, I still haven't grown resilient to it yet.