desire

I just felt like writing, but I don't know what.

There's just so many things going on that I just can't seem to keep track. I don't know like seriously. Why am I like this? I can say that there are nearly no flaws in my life. I have a simple and happy family, I have lovely and beautiful friends, I have all the technology needed for the survival of a teenager living in the twenty first century, I do pretty well in my studies. But sometimes, I just wish my life wasn't like this.

I wish my life was more interesting. Maybe due to the influence of dramas but I'd rather be like the female lead of a drama. I wish my life had a little more tragic things happening. Then people would start to care more about me. I miss that feeling. That feeling that I'm needed, that feeling that...someone was afraid of losing me. I just can't seem to grasp onto that feeling anymore, in fact I realise there is nothing there for me to grasp onto. I just want to feel wanted and needed. To be honest, I just don't want to feel unwanted anymore. All these in my life are just reminding me that no matter how good my life is, I'm lacking one of the most simplest thing. I don't want to stay up past midnight each night with just my music. I don't want to spend the time I feel lonely with just my ipod. I just want someone to care...